The Woman who was bent
It was awful;
the discomfort,
the pain,
the humiliation,
the shame.
When I was young
I had seen others like me;
bent,
misshapen.
I had felt pity,yes,
but
I had looked the other way,
hurried by,
unwilling to acknowledge them.
And now,
here I was,
bent,
misshapen
in body
and, if I dare admit it,
in spirit too.
My view of the world,
of life,
had shrunk
to ground level.
I no longer looked up
to the sky,
to the sun,
to people's eyes.
It was too painful,
in more ways than one.
I still went to the synagogue.
I still hoped,
longed,
for relief;
for forgiveness;
for healing;
for an answer,
but none came.
And then
that day...
I was there
in my usual place
alone,
physically
and
spiritually.
No-one wanted to be near me,
not even God.
Then suddenly
there was silence,
an expectant hush
all around.
I raised my eyes as far as I could
and
I saw everyone
looking at me.
I froze.
Then
I heard a voice
calling me to come;
calling me with authority
but
calling with love
and
I moved.
How I got to him
I can't remember;
nor how long it took me
but nothing was going to stop me;
not the overwhelming silence;
not the people's stares;
not the waves of
disgust,
hostility.
Nothing.
I heard his voice again -
Woman, you are set free.
I felt his hands touch me
and
fire
spread through my whole body,
through my mind,
through my spirit.
I straightened up
and I looked at him.
I looked straight at him.
I looked straight into his eyes
and
I praised God.
Oh how I praised God.
c Kathleen Wilks